I almost forgot! So I have a 3.611 GPA and I'm happily married and I'm sane... aren't those all the things they said I couldn't do?

so, because final exams will be drawing near, i wanted to write about this now while i remembered ( Read more... )

As someone who has been told "shut up, Lee, and be funny again..." this hit home in all the wrong ways. Mental illness and self destruction are only funny because people like us make it funny to people who don't get it.

http://www.cracked.com/quick-fixes/robin-williams-why-funny-people-kill-themselves/?utm_source=facebook&utm_medium=fanpage& ( Read more... )

after explaining to said friend that people say the dumbest shit when it comes to mental illness... and in this case, after saying people claim they "understand" because they were depressed about something once...

friend: "How kind of you to have diagnosed my problem, dear acquaintance! I shall owe you a treasury of gratitude I'm sure."

after ( Read more... )

in march, i started feeling really not well. i was developing a facial tic, stomach was jacked the fuck up, and emotional outbursts were becoming more and more common. looking back on it, this was probably the beginning of lithium toxicity. it also should have been the first sign that not only were my meds poisoning me, they also weren't working ( Read more... )

in the middle of the night, i realized that i'm handling things with way more poise and grace than i would have 4 years ago ( Read more... )

i'm totally prepared for this sorry ass shrink to blow me off tomorrow.

i hope they listen. but they probably won't.

i feel horrible, physically and mentally. this level of rage is not sustainable. it's exhausting me and killing me.

this has got to get fixed.

or maybe it should be bad news then good news ( Read more... )

who would have thought all of this could be caused by a simple antiviral medication?

this morning, i am thankful and humbled by this whole experience. more importantly, i know i am loved. most importantly, i am still alive to tell you about the whole damn mess.

fucking thankful.

tamiflu is the devil ( Read more... )